Thursday, July 08, 2004

Help Me! Help Me! For gods' sake someone help me! I'm trapped in this house with nothing to do and no where to go with any one. But every cloud has some sort of lining (if it's sliver or not I don't know)and this one is that I get my drivers license in about 11 days. That is if my mother feels like being nice or if she wants to be herself. But what else can I say about her that everyone doesn't already know? She's mean and that's about it. I am actually looking forward ,not to going back to school per say, but just having somewhere to go daily. I'm trying to get a job so I'll have some means of escape and when band camp starts PARTY! Well I just can't win with her no matter. At least everything else is going well :)

Monday, June 28, 2004

Well here I am home again and I should be until I go to Albuquerque next. My trip was all in all pretty good but since I've told everyone about my adventures at band camp in Vegas (it's not as much fun as one would think) I'll spare you the big stuff and go into the very odd and funny details.

I found out a lot about Oliver that I didn't need to know.
Zoe and I were so tired one day that we threw "ass crackers" at each other.
All of the guard instructors said that we were a really tite group just because I told Andreno that I hoped he woke up next to a woman.
"The Original. The King!"
We did the hamster dance not once but twice!
Trey found the skinniest girl with the least amount of clothes on and ground on her for the entire dance.
I drove 12 hours in a car between Brice and Oliver.
At first there was only 1 cat outside out hotel, but when we woke up there were 3.
Brice told Oliver to "fuck off!"
I rode the roller coaster at New York New York
We spent 7 hours at the grand canyon.
We ate at the Road Kill Cafe in a town that Katlin's grandpa founded!
I woke up with Anders jumping on my bed in his underwear and his catcher t-shirt yelling, "viva, viva, viva, Las Vegas!"

And if that's not disturbing I don't know what is. All in all we had a pretty good time but I don't know if I can do it again. We'll have to see 1. If I'm captain and 2. How badly we loose so therefore need it. I can only handle 20 crying drum majors and 200 band geeks for a very short time.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

You know I think that I expect too much from people. In all of relationships I have I tend to mess things up. Maybe there is something mentally wrong with me or I was loved too much as a child, but I can honestly say that I love to push people away. I don't do it on propose at least my conscience mind doesn't. It's not like I wake up in the morning and think to my self, "how can I screw up the best thing I've got today?" But somehow I do it...daily! I don't know why I just don't stand up in the middle of my group of friends and scream "Damn it! It's all about me! me me me me me!" I can't live with out human contact, with out my friends I would die. But some how I am the infamous mood killer, say the wrong thing at the wrong time, inappropriate thing to say, laugh when you fall, rub salt in the wound kind of person. Maybe I need too much and don't care enough, or maybe it's the other way around. But I do know that I expect too much and only get mad in return. So if I am doing this, and you know better then I do, please say something so I can promptly shut my mouth.

Monday, June 14, 2004

Hello, hello to one and all. I'M BACK! Well to say the least me trip was fantastic and I had a wonderful time with my family. My family of all people. Well to give you a short over look of my trip it was 9 days long. We went from Arizona to California to Nevada back to Arizona and the home again, round trip it was about 2000 miles in a little silver Honda with a loaf of bread.
San Diego is the most beautiful place in the entire world! It was amazing. There was palm trees and bird of paradise growing in the parking lot of out hotel. It was not hotter then 75 every day and they had weather that they call "June gloom" but it was great if you're outside all day walking at Sea World. We saw a really old light house at Point Loma and went down to the ocean down below. On our way back up to the car we saw a seal in the water, just hanging out and eating fish. A real seal in the wild. I touched rays and fed a baby seal fish. I got splashed by multiple aquatic mammals and got to go on an air craft carrier almost exactly like the one my dad was on. In Vegas my mom won $900 and between my sister and I, we brought home no less then 10 stuffed animals.
It was by far the longest and best trip that my family has gone on. But it's good to be home and be able to sleep in my own bed. On Saturday I'll be off to Vegas once again to go to color guard camp. But for now I'm kicking back...At home.

Monday, May 31, 2004

In approximately 3 1/2 days I'm going on a five state road trip with my family. From Santa Fe we'll drive to Arizona, California, Nevada, Utah and Colorado before returning to humble little New Mexico. But do not fret fans of Emma, I'll only be gone a week (oh god a whole week!) But then it is off to Nevada yet again for color guard camp at the UNLV campus. So in June I'll be gone for two whole weeks, from the 4th to the 12th and then from the 20th to the 26th. Both trips are by car but only one has my sister (but the other has Anders, Brice and Oliver so it's a even trade off.) It should be ok though, I mean how could Sea World, the beach and Vegas (twice in a month) not be? Just make sure that you pray for me!

(I changed the description as I will do occasionally so make sure you take a look!)

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

IT'S OVER! The 2003-2004 school year is officially over and the seniors are cut free as of 7:30 tonight. As for me, 2 years down and only 2 more to go. I suppose that I am officially a junior as of yesterday when I finished my last final. But in all actuality this year has been the best so far. This year I joined guard and took home 2 hard earned first place awards and one that was given to us(Sweep stakes in EP baby!)I met new people and made close friends while still managing to keep my old ones. I discovered new passions and gained a substantial amount of confidence from both guard and my new buddies. I did things that I've never done before because, until this year, I didn't have the opportunity or the means to do so. I went on three trips last year, two for Key Club and one for band. I became part of a group that accepted me for who I was. I stayed in Eldorado a lot but still had the time of my life. I found out who I am and who I want to be and I even fell in love. Yes, this year has been the best so far even with all of it's pit falls. So here's to 2 more years. I hope that they can find a way to top this one.

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

I would like to make a public apology. I want to say I'm sorry.
I sorry to every one about everything. I'm a bitch and I know that, no surprise! I am mean and evil and I wanna say I'm sorry to everyone about that. I sorry about talking about you behind your back, I'm sorry about talking about you right to your face. I'm sorry for all the yelling that I do. I sorry for always being sarcastic and unreal. I sorry for always telling people to "suck it!"
"shut up!", "shut the hell up!"
And "F*** you bitiach!"
I'm sorry for all the crap I talk. I'm sorry for what a bad daughter I am. I'm sorry for what a worse sister I am. And I'm the most sorry for what a crappy friend I am to everyone.
I'm sorry Emily
I'm sorry Zoe
I'm sorry Nick
I'm sorry Megan
I'm sorry Lena
I'm sorry Erin
I'm sorry Mom
I'm sorry Daddy
I'm sorry Elizabeth
but most of all I'm sorry Tom.
I've been a bad and mean person to all of you and every one else in my life and I'm sorry.

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